Motherhood highlighted my problem.
Matt sent me a post the other day that said, “The babies that came into this world not wanting to be put down, are born to the mamas who need to be taught how to slow down”
Oof. That hit me in the gut. Baby girl doesn’t necessarily want to be held – but she does struggle to nap during the day. And that takes a lot of my time and attention. I’ve been “learning to slow down” for at least a year now. And you know how well I was doing at that? Not. At. All.
And you know what truly taught me that I don’t have control over my schedule? Motherhood.
Being a mom is like undoing all the things you thought you knew about yourself and the world. It shines a magnifying glass on your biggest flaws and says “Here you go! These are them!”
So you struggle with impatience? Ohhh get ready. You like to be in control? Good luck. Staying organized is your top priority? Life says – how about we realign those values now.
I’m deep in the trenches of learning (and relearning) to undo all the habits I’ve picked up over the past 34 years. And learning to lean on God to help me when it feels overwhelming.
There’s that verse where Paul says “Your power is made perfect in my weakness.” And LET ME TELL YOU – we’re about to have a lot of the Lord’s power and grace over here. Because we’re uncovering allllll sorts of my weaknesses.
And yet we keep going. Even when I’m tired & the plan isn’t working. Because even in the messy parts of being a mama, there is SO MUCH GOOD. And day by day, I’m growing into a better human.
So here’s to slowing down & relearning how to be still.
